The campus 10 minutes away from us is evacuating. I assume shit’s about to go down. Stay posted.
We really out here. In here, actually~ in my girlfriend’s dorm with a beautiful view of the show that’s about to go down. We got anime, food, and tea. Nature can come at us.
Sick as fuuuuuck
Fairleigh Dickinson is putting something in the tap water I swear to god. We all have the same half-cold, and I’ve had it the entire time I’ve been here. I’m sick enough to not go run around and socialize, but healthy enough to go to class. This is that bullshit.
Anyway, they still can’t make me do homework. Tumblr makes sure of that. I got a “craft presentation” to bang out, so I’ll see y’all on the flip side.
I think some people don’t know that the problems they face are 1) solvable problems and 2) not the worst problems being faced
Go get better. There is a way.
All meaning has been removed from my life
I intend to move to the mountains and produce fresh beats for the rest of my days
in which our hero overtaken by an unwarranted and wonton sadness.
I need help. Do you understand me? I don’t need it later. If you ask me later, I’ll be fine. I don’t know what I am asking for but it seems this is a problem I cannot solve by myself. But whatever this is keeps coming back and I’m so tired of being sad. It stops me from seeing straight. I don’t look up, and my eyes can’t focus, and I can’t fucking stop scratching at my head. I walked down the street and as soon as I got to the dark part, I started crying. Not sobbing or anything, just changing from someone expressing a socially accepted amount of sadness on the street to someone expressing an unaccepted amount.
Today I feel regret. For every girl I didn’t kiss, and for every time I wasn’t told how much she loves me. I see more clearly now how badly I long for that, to be loved, to fall in love.
I dole out attention to anyone who asks. It does feel like my duty. I want to help the people I care about, I want to see them succeed and I want them to be happy, or at the least, alright.
Maybe this is my brain’s way of asking, “What about me?”
Let’s talk about Spiderman.
Let me start by saying Andrew Garfield and his portrayal of Peter Parker is fucking awesome. I feel like I’ve known Peter all my life, and I’m happy they found a face and voice for him that suits him. He kicked all kinds of ass in that movie and I loved every minute of it. The only thing that got to me was the random teenage fantasy fulfillment they felt obligated to throw in every scene with Gwen. Superpowers don’t solve social anxiety. I’d rather see Peter grow up into a confident person anyway, which he will. The marvel universe is based around responsibility and doing the right thing, and even then there will be obstacles that will seem greater than the reward, and the reward itself can be misleading or nonexistent. But Peter works through it, and when he has his doubts, those close to him remind him he’s doing the right thing, even if he puts them in danger. All of that results in growth, and that’s what I want to see, is some coming of age. I guess you can’t have that in an action movie.
His thing is that he’s a problem solver. He looks for a new angle on what he’s provided with, and he makes it work in the nick of time. It feels wrong when he doesn’t work for something.
He was a good flavor of snappy, though. I really wanted him to call a bad guy “Chuckles”. He was taunting without being cruel and correct without being suave. Felt like Peter Parker to me.
Also, Emma Stone lookin’ right on the regular. Gat damn.
man, all I wanna do is listen to say anything and i swear to god this shit just disappeared off my external
So anyway guys I forgot to mention it but I went to college orientation over the past 2 days and I had a way better time than I ever could have anticipated. Everyone was super nice and it just seemed like everyone wanted to get along with me. My professor/all the orientation leaders/basically any and every figure of authority was really helpful and we played lazer tag and just had a grand old time.
But I’m home now. I’m trying to separate my current mindset from my college mindset, I’ll be working much harder then and I have things right now that deserve my attention.
The mutual appreciation for the fact that the other is that exact person, and nobody else.
I guess everything has a way of working itself out